30 May, 2008

on the other side...

...the Queen kept crying 'Faster! Faster!' but Alice felt she could not go faster, though she had no breath to say so...

The most curious part of the thing was, that the trees and the other things around them never changed their places at all: however fast they went, they never seemed to pass anything...

'Now! Now!' cried the Queen. 'Faster! Faster!' And they went so fast that at last they seemed to skim through the air, hardly touching the ground with their feet...

Alice looked around her in great surprise. 'Why, I do believe we've been under this tree the whole time! Everything's just as it was!'

'Of course it is,' said the Queen. 'What would you have it?'

'Well, in
our country,' said Alice, still panting a little, 'you'd generally get somewhere else - if you ran very fast for a long time as we've been doing.'

'A slow sort of country!' said the Queen. 'Now,
here, you see, it takes all the running you can do, to keep in the same place. If you want to get somewhere else, you must run at least twice as fast as that!'
I knew this would be hard. And it's so fucking hard. I just have to keep reminding myself that this is good for me. And repeating a re-discovered mantra: When one must, one can. And hoping it's true.

I spent two days this week writing something that didn't even remotely come up to scratch. I'm spending this evening with a bottle of cheap wine, trying to put all thoughts of Erinsborough from my mind. Tomorrow, I shall regroup, before I spend my weekend re-writing.

So, how are you?

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2 Comments:

Blogger Kezza said...

Oh my, grueling!

I still think it's rather exciting though, and besides even if you hate the pressure of it, people are always going to glaze over with envy and admiration when you tell them what you do. Well, I would anyway!

Good to hear from you again, keep up the good work.

P.S. I find a cheap bottle of red can be one of the most inspiring things in the world!

May 31, 2008 9:36 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm sure, whatever happens, it will work out okay in the long run. It's good to be stretched because it helps us grow.

Good luck!

June 01, 2008 10:20 pm  

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